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Relaxing and Expressing Gratitude

  • Mar. 1st, 2008 at 2:49 PM
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I'm thoroughly enjoying my weekend.  I feel it preserves my sanity to get away for the weekend off of campus at least once a week.  I never do any homework either. I could never focus on it at home anyway.  I am really looking forward to the wedding in May.  ^_^ I couldn't be happier to marry my man, Adam, of four years in August.  Before we know it, we'll be living with each other in an apartment.  I think we'll be much happier and at peace once we move out of here.
I posted some photo albums on my facebook page, if you're interested.  I told Adam how much I Ioved him last night as we lay in each other's arms. It was so beautiful. I told him that God must have sent him to me, because he was like an angel, a miracle in my life. We were both deeply touched by that remark.  I also told him that I believed God had sent me the biggest reward for my patience--Adam.  I cried so hard--tears of joy.  I am so grateful for having such a wonderful fiance. It was well worth the 16 year wait.  I couldn't imagine living without him.  ^_^
 
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Miraculous Epiphany

  • Feb. 18th, 2008 at 8:21 PM
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I think something miraculous just happened.  I was reading Princess Mia (Princess Diaries) by Meg Cabot and I suddenly realized something.  It was like an epiphany.  I realized that I need to let go of the past and move on with my life.  There was a scene in the book where the character was depressed and was seeing a psychologist...she admitted her struggle with depression.  I started to cry. I realized, that like Princess MIa, I was ready to face my longtime struggle with depression and seek treatment.  I hope to see this healer that I have heard wonders about (either that or homeopathic treatment).  I have decided that the new me is finally coming to life.  I am ready to make sincere positive changes in my life.

A special thanks to my best friends, Jennifer and Samantha, as well as Adam, for inspiring me to be myself and giving me the courage I have always needed to take these challenges head on.

I am forever grateful!  ^_^

I am ready to finally be me.  I am ready to make profound changes, and I am ready to let go of friends who are no longer there for me, and I am finally ready to move on!!!!  I am ready to take control of my life, to not feel so lonely anymore, to stop feeling sorry for myself, and to stop worrying.  I need to make these dramatic life changes now.  Changes are never easy and they take time, and after a year of extreme bouts of depression, I have decided it is no longer worth it to think about what would have been.  I need to make new friends and allow new and more positive energy to flow.  I want to get a head start on my writing career, now that I have finally found the right inspiration.  Thanks Meg Cabot!
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Yay!

  • Nov. 15th, 2007 at 5:39 PM
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It's almost time for Fall break and I am so excited!  Only one more day and I get to go home for an entire week...this is awesome!  This semester has gone by so fast....I found myself calculating the total number of papers I had to write this semester and it came out to 14!  (1 for speech, 2 for English, 2 for Lincoln, 1 for INFL, a total of 8 for my two philosophy classes!) No wonder I felt so overwhelmed, and I bet it will be worse next semester!  Dang!  It's dizzying, but at least it is almost over.  I plan on doing some volunteering, enjoying a Thanksgiving dinner with my family, hunting for a job (among other errands), and enjoying my vacation.  I can't wait!  ^_^
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Another Awesome Weekend

  • Nov. 4th, 2007 at 9:09 PM
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I had another awesome weekend.  I made cupcakes for my speech class on Tuesday (with a fall theme).  I invited Jennifer over and we watched Spider Man 3 for the second time....that is a really awesome movie (and the best of the three in my opinion).  I had a good time catching up with her and just hanging out...we haven't see each other in over a month since we have both been so busy and drained by the end of the week.  Luckily, my Thanksgiving break is coming up in two weeks, so I definitely look forward to that.  Next weekend, I plan on looking at wedding dresses and rings with my boyfriend, so I am very excited about that.  I also watched the first five episodes of Neon Genesis Evangelion with my boyfriend....it's alright so far.  I want to watch more of the series before I decide whether I like it or not.  For some reason, the series seems very obscure and boring to me, but I should at least give it another chance.

I've settled all the issues with financial aid and was finally able to finish registration.  I will be loaded with 17 hours next semester, and according to my calculations, I am going to have to do 17 hours the rest of my time at college in order to graduate on time.  There are way too many students staying an extra semester or year, and I don't want to end up graduating in five years instead of four.  At least I don't have to worry about the credits now that I have a goal set.

My only concerns now are finding a relatively decent job in the area (as well as my boyfriend) for next summer once we're living together on our own, and I found out that we also need to find an off campus apartment to accommodate ourselves in since they are renovating the married student housing.

I guess I shouldn't worry too much.  I feel really good about this marriage and I am willing to put in the extra effort to make each other feel comfortable in our new home, whether that be working more than I am used to to make the monthly payments or just doing random acts of kindness and love.
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Fun Times

  • Sep. 24th, 2007 at 8:28 PM
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Now that I have gotten all that anger off my chest.....on to brighter, happier times.  I had a freakin' awesome weekend!  I went to Anime Weekend Atlanta.  I bought a few things from the vendor room on Friday, including three t-shirts (two for me and one for Adam), and a pillow for my sister.  I noticed that they had less vendors this year than in 2005 when I attended last.  They had more of the things I wanted last time, but this weekend was still so worthwhile.  This time around, it was Ambrosia (Amber), Anna, Jennifer, and me.  We eventually caught up with more of Jennifer's friends from school too.  It was nice to see everyone again.  The highlight was definitely the big J-Rock concert.  Three bands played back-to-back from about 9:00 'til past Midnight.  The Captains totally catered to the fangirls and to everyone that loved Naruto, which was awesome.  The last two bands were The Emeralds and Peelander-Z.  This was a new experience for me...my first time seeing J-Rock bands live, and I can't say that I was disappointed.  They were so fun to watch.  I got a kick out of their performances and we caught the most random things on tape.  It was so funny to watch recorded moments at the con.  I laugh at just about anything.  One of the videos was actually of a random guy telling this cosplayer to stop.  Another was of this guy dressed up as a sushi piece twirling around.  It was so damn hilarious!  I was laughing my ass off.  Then Anna taped me and Amber doing the "Naruto, Naruto, lubba Naruto" dance.  I hope she doesn't post that up on youtube.  >,<  lol 

Most of our time was spent in the vendor room.  I didn't spend as much money this year because I couldn't find exactly what I was looking for, plus I barely had enough money to even pay for my part of the hotel room!  Talk about embarrassing.  I obviously didn't plan my finances as well as I should have.  Oh well....shit happens.

Anyway...I really wanted to see Paprika on Saturday but there was a line for every video room.  Everything was packed this year, so that was a bummer!  We didn't even get to see the Costume Contest because it was overcrowded.  I shrugged it off and hoped that maybe we could do that another time.  Jennifer suggested that they have events in more than one hotel, and in bigger rooms....makes a whole lot more sense to me.  That's what they did for Dragon Con...the biggest Sci-fi convention in the nation.

We watched Mushi Shi...it was interesting to say the least.  I wouldn't buy it, but it was worth watching to get a feel for it.

We went to the mall after driving around for an hour trying to find Outback Steakhouse....it wasn't at the address listed and we couldn't find it, so we instead had a delicious dinner at P. F. Chang's.  That lemon chicken is to die for!  Try it!  It's worth the money.

This weekend may have been a little crazy, but it was outstandingly good!  Even that's an understatement.  I feel like I could talk all day about how much of a wonderful time I had.  If only I had that kind of time.

The most priceless moments were spent with Jennifer.  We had some extra one-on-one time together, and in a friendship, that is the most I could ever ask for.  She really helped me out a lot with the issues and bullshit going on in my life. 

Jennifer....you encourage me in the most enthralling ways that can't be described.  I love you!  You are such a good friend to me.  You're the best!  ^_^
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Life and Homework

  • Sep. 6th, 2007 at 10:35 AM
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I have so much reading to do, it's ridiculous! Or maybe I am just completely overwhelmed, which I tend to be. I have to read for every one of my six classes except for speech.  It's mostly reading and writing this semester, but I find it so hard to keep up...probably because I am stressing too much about my own situations in life.  I want so badly to do the right thing that maybe I am doing the wrong thing.  I no longer feel quite as confused as earlier in the week.  I needed to let go of some of my feelings pertaining to last semester and it is probably the best thing I ever did for myself right now. I know that I need to move on from the past, and I feel like I have the power to do that right now, but I still fail to access it.  I can't let the past be a roadblock anymore.  Being away from home so I have time to think certainly helps, but it isn't a problem-solver. I know that I need to be nicer to my mom and sister, but it's really difficult.  These changes will all take time...it's hard to heal a deep wound, but with time, it looks so much better, even if you had to endure a lot of pain in the long run.  I am hoping that I will be much happier in the years to come.
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